Joan Rivers

Joan Rivers was laid to rest today.

I am usually timely on honoring the passing of artists who have affected me deeply, paying respect to them through a blog post and a painting of them.  It may not be much, but somehow that public proclamation makes me feel that if I draw one person's attention to the accomplishments of a fallen star, I have somehow put a brick in the wall of public consciousness.  Dear Abby, Lou Reed, Philip Seymour Hoffman, Robin Williams, a personal friend.  I honored all of them of the day they died.

Yet somehow I couldn't do that for Joan.  Well, I couldn't immediately.  I was so struck by grief at her passing.  Maybe it was because I was still watching her, every single Friday night of Fashion Police and usually again in a rerun.  She felt a part of my life or at least she was part of my life ritual.   And last week on Tuesday, FP just had that 90-minute Emmy special so, you see, I just had had a fresh visit with her when I heard the news of her throat surgery gone very wrong.  In a strange way, I wasn't overly concerned about her being put into an induced coma.  I have a family relative that underwent that this year, and it seems like a logical, methodical procedure that was temporary until things "could be figured out."

I was in Nashville last week, but daily, I still would check online to see how Joan was doing--holding strong--that sounded good.  But then, "had suffered a cardiac arrest."  What?!  Yet next I read that she was stable, and then that she had been moved out of intensive care.  I was so relieved!  How could there be a world without caustic-tongued Joan?  As I had said about Robin Williams, she has been around for my whole life.  Joan, in some twisted Tim Burton-esque/Twilight Zone way, felt like my grandma.  Why, I had JUST written about her in a blog post here on August 16th, praising all that she has done, including co-writing the script for "The Girl Most Likely To."

I will still remember when my husband said to me (I feel like there have been too many times of late, when I can "remember" where I was when I heard bad news.), "Joan Rivers died."  I couldn't believe it!  She was doing better... I had thought.  The tears didn't come at first, even they shocked into inaction.  Then they started to flow and didn't stop as I watched every news program on E! and read every article online, and the thought of drawing Joan was completely impossible.  It was as if I just couldn't process that someone that indefatigable, that dogged, that FILLED with life, could be not in this life.

My brain needed convincing over and over again.  Today I watched CBS Sunday Morning and clips of her funeral, and days have passed, and I can start thinking of a fitting portrait for grand, spicier than a "ghost chile pepper", Joan.  I know what I will do, but not yet.

I know how saturated the world is with news.  And I know that after a week and a half of respect and clips, the world will start to move forward, onward, to the next piece of celebrity gossip, George Clooney's upcoming nuptials, (I saw it today), etc.  For that very fact, I feel bad that perhaps if there were 4 people who might have read these words here, now only one person may delve into this, so tired they are already of hearing about her.  Alas, it is human nature, and I do understand.  I'm sorry though, Joan.  I couldn't bare to type a word until now...that's how sorrowful I was, and still am, that you are gone.

"My heart is torn in half.  She wasn't done."  Sarah Silverman on Twitter

The Girl Most Likely To

Somewhere in the deep recesses of my mind, I hold an image of a made for t.v. movie with Stockard Channing.  I just remember her walking down a hospital hallway in a blue peignoir set, her plastic surgery bandages removed, and she, beautiful, perfect in early 1970's makeup and high, black bouffant, sprayed and flowing. It must have made quite an impression on my very young brain...a wonderful, Miss America version of "Frankenstein!"*

Up late one night several weeks ago, the movie popped into my head again, as my synapses brought it forward for another 10-year visitation.  I wondered in Amazon carried it.  Already on YouTube, my fingers did a little tap dance on my keyboard, and viola!  The whole dang movie is on there in 5 parts.  C-R-A-Z-Y.  A young Stockard Channing, Fred Grandy (prior to Gopher on the "Love Boat") and a younger Ed Asner.  He stilled looked old...just youngish old.  Uh huh.

The real kicker was that in the opening credits, who was one of the screenwriters, but Joan Rivers!  Ah, Joan.  You are something.  You've done it all; you're still kicking; and I just don't think people realize all that you've accomplished.  Who knew you had written a black comedy 12,000 years ago!

P.S. can I just insert my most favorite of Joan River's quotes?  I'm going to.  It's super spicy, so if you're offended, read no further.  Remember, I warned you.  O.K., this is from years ago on Fashion Police.  She was commenting on Zooey Deschanel, then having acted in many independent films, and Joan said,
"Zooey Deschanel is so quirky, her clitoris is a Skittle."  OMG, it cracks me up to this day!

Um, alright, back to the subject at hand.  This little flick is super dated, but you know, you can watch it in an instant.  Besides, you'll truly be amazed at how far movie make-up and nose prosthetics have come. (-;
(Just watch the first clip, and you can click on each successive part on YouTube--you're all super smart...you know how it works!)

Post-Surgery Stockard

"The Girl Most Likely To" (Part I)

*Just a side note, as I type this, I remember Isaac Mizrahi recalling in "Unzipped", one of my favorite documentaries of all time, how Loretta Young in  "The Call of the Wild" was about to die, and he says, "if you're going to freeze on the tundra, you might as well do it with your makeup unsmudged."  Those Hollywood stars, they sure have their maquillage mastered in the most dire of circumstances!

Here's also a fabulous little clip of "Unzipped".